Plateau and backslide are the two terms I dread. I hit a plateau in weight loss this week. I'm hovering at 182 pounds, despite increased activity and reduced intake. I have to admit I was disappointed in myself, which led to the backslide. On Saturday night, instead of sticking to my DASH diet, I broke ranks and ordered a lasagne from my favourite restaurant. Oh, it was cheesy and salty and so bad for me, but it tasted so good. I compensated by having a salad with the meal, but I devoured the meal in 2 minutes. For dessert, I had a healthy heaping of guilt. I've been beating myself up ever since Saturday for my momentary weakness.
I'm not going to cave any more (not to the lasagna), but to the guilt. If I oppress myself, then the times I order out are going to seem freeing. It's like when my parents set a curfew. I never felt more independent and free than when I broke curfew. I can't divide foods into good and bad categories, or else I'll give foods like potato chips an allure and desire that they don't deserve. I'd rather consider all foods equal, and give myself the power to choose what I want to eat. If I'm going to eat lasagne from a pizza place, that's about two servings of meat, a couple of servings of grains, and about 3 servings of cheese. From there, I can adjust my other meals accordingly. I'm not saying that take-out restaurant food becomes a part of my regular diet; I'm just saying that if it does, then I have to incorporate it on that day.
I guess what I'm saying is that life happens. There will be days when I just want to eat something like pizza or fried chicken. If I allow myself those occasions once in a while, then I'll be less likely to backslide completely and go on a binge eating spree. To be honest, the meal I had the next night tasted fresher and better than the cheesy lasagne, which really only tasted like cheese. If I'm talking about choices, then I choose to eat the foods that taste good. Over the last four weeks, I would have to say that the foods that have tasted great are the ones that are healthy for me. It also helps that I have the fear of high blood pressure always at the back of my mind, so anything that tastes like salt brings me back to the day I was in the doctor's office, and my physician's eyebrows furrowed with deep concern as he read my blood pressure. When you see a doctor make that face, you don't forget it easily.
The danger of junk food isn't the food itself; it's the aftermath of guilt and desire. Take away the guilt and the desire should also go away. That's my theory today. If I balloon up to 250 pounds on a daily diet of pizza and lasagne, then I'll know the theory doesn't hold water.