Sigh. Just heard from the publisher for the non-fiction book proposal. No go. I'm a little sad, but surprising not all that sad. This rejection confirms for me that I'm a fiction writer and playwright. While I would have been thrilled to add non-fiction writer to the mix, I realize that the skill set to make facts interesting without embellishing is just not my forte.
In a weird way, I'm relieved to get the rejection, because now I have the time to focus on A Close Shave and the graphic novel proposal. The only thing that disappoints me about the rejection is the explanation. The publisher seemed to contradict his previous notes on my earlier proposal. Maybe I misread his email or maybe I just wasn't able to dig deep enough into the subtext. Either way, I found myself getting rejected for providing what I thought the publisher had asked for.
The only other time I remember this kind of back and forth stuff was when I worked in television with producers who would only know what they wanted once they saw it. They couldn't explain what they wanted or provide clear enough direction; they just asked writers to revise the script until it was in the right place. I called this the fine art of furniture mover writing, where you're moving a very heavy couch around a living room until a fussy homeowner decides where it should live.
Thankfully, the publisher cut me from the project before I could figure out if this was another case of furniture mover writing. I could say that this is just sour grapes for being rejected, but I'm comfortable enough with my skill as a writer that I know I can deliver what a client wants, provided they know what they want.
This experience confirmed for me something that has been gnawing at the side of my brain ever since I entered the publishing world. When I fell into this strange world, I had this weird notion that publishers and editors knew exactly the kinds of books they wanted and what type of story would sell well in the marketplace. I'm now coming to the opinon that the publishing world is just like theatre, film and television; a lot of people with opinions, and those who are most vocal and assertive about their opinions win out over everyone else. In other words, this is a sales-driven industry, and if you can prove you can sell books, you'll get published.
I know people will flay me for suggesting that publishing is mostly a commercial venture, and maybe literary fiction is about artistic voice and literary excellence, but if that's true, why do even publishers need to validate their books by including every award that the book has been nominated for or won. For an author, it might be vanity, but for a publisher, it comes down to the simple fact that awards and nominations can sell books.
Knowing this makes it a whole lot easier to accept a publisher's rejection, because it's not the work that is being rejected, but the marketability of the work that's being rejected. Sometimes, it is about the work but writers have great imaginations and can delude themselves into thinking otherwise.
Anyway, I was happy for the shot to try something I hadn't done before, and I'm sorry I failed at it. Lesson learned. Time to move on to the next adventure.